oh my freakin god.  i made it through two straight weeks of nonstop work with one day off in between.  (i've been wretched sick all along.)  i'm so tired.  it's been so difficult being the only one working right now.. but the light is at the end of the tunnel.  (charlie's pretty much got a position at a citizens bank call center - he's going in monday to talk to the managers.)  the pressure on me was too much to handle.  i looked in the mirror today.. and i actually have grey hair and huge bags under my eyes.  like, lots of grey hair.... like i'm middle aged already.  i feel like i've been through hell and back in the past five years.  thank you god.. relief is on its way.

i apologize for the lack of updates.  basically, i'm buried with work.  i'm also in the process of getting my health together (i'll finally be seeing a specialist in october when my insurance kicks in).  MRI's a 'plenty soon.  i work monday through friday and some weeks, monday through saturday.  i don't even get xmas eve or the day after xmas off.  yikes.  this place is hardcore.  but i'm trying my best to balance work and personal responsibilities.  learning the legal process is such a challenge and i've already made a few mistakes,  but i'm up to it.

and ugh.. BoA's 'US debut' is frightening.  her english isn't bad at all.. but the song just screams 'I'M TRYING TOO HARD.' it doesn't feel natural enough to be welcomed with open arms by the average american.  the mixing and arrangement is just terrible... and sadly the song sounds like it actually had potential before some idiot ran it through a meat grinder and back.  scratch that.  it sounds like someone finished about 50% of the actual song and just extended what they had.  i'm crossing my fingers it's just a fan mix of a sample (which does happen frequently.. like with tatu's new song).

poor charlie is sick.  (sad face)

So tired. 

(psss I still don't have internet... at my mom's.)

real quick. Using the wireless at the hospital from my iPod, I figured an update was in order. Basically on Friday our apartment was broken into (it was vacant for far too long, the arrangements we had to accomidate it earlier in the week fell through...) That pretty much turned our weekend sour. Luckily not too much was stolen from us. Disappointed though... If plans were kept, it would have never happened. So much stress- I just wish people kept their words.

Just a heads up, we have no Internet, phone or tv until I get everything hooked up next weekend. This is the first time Ive been able to check anything since Thursday. Until then I really won't be able to respond or check much. I just happened to be sick and stuck in a waiting room thankfully with Internet lol

wow dude.  i am so tired from work.

so much to do this week!  with the moving and all.

i got my first $5,000.00 payment right before logging off this evening from some guy in SPN.

(YAY SPANGLISH.)

tomorrow it's IKEA & URBAN OUTFITTERS.  ahoy.

TGIF

it sucks having like, zero time to do anything.  thank god it's the weekend.

i love my new iPod touch.  i can't stop fiddling with it.

is it just me..



... or does HITOE's smile look painfully forced?  taka chan.. you too??? 
(avid SPEED fans should be able to tell in a heartbeat.)

i love you, SPEED.  i always will.. but i can see a train wreck headed our way already.  i have no doubt SPEED will dish.. but i do not trust their management's intentions and i have a feeling it'll be a matter of time before they fade into obscurity.  U15 idol groups are hot fair right now and i'm sure after rebanding and disbanding so many times no one would admit defeat and break them up officially again.  i have a bad, bad feeling about this.. dream anyone?  i'm totally not trying to be the negative, brooding one.. but come on, people.  it's so friggin obvious.  especially with the whole eriko thing.  unless their producers seriously come up with some stand out, innovative and unique material, i just don't see them even making a dent with the new generations of music listeners.  as much as their solo careers were bombing, there was still promise if only someone picked up the pieces.. but to bring an old teen group back from the dead with what looks like the same look and style they had in their last album (which was a slightly more 'grown-up' regurgitation of their original look)... is so obviously a last ditch attempt for extra $$$.  think about it.  unless you're already a serious SPEED fan.. why would you care?  bottom line?  i just don't want to see my favourite girl group of all time thrown to the wolves and shoved back in the box.  (sad face)

my predictions >>

SECOND COMING OF dream drm Dream!!!!

but i will try to enjoy what little i can of them and try my best to support the girls.. i will buy their CDs and download their performances and watch their DVDs.. as i am sure they will deliver.. and i am sure they will bring back the good ole days before girls were suddenly half naked and 11.  and i'm even sure the material will even be more of what i love.  that is, assuming HITOE doesn't finally go psycho and fatally wound eriko with her yoga thighs of doom.

Job hunting is a bitch. rofl  Working hard to find a suitable, full time position @ a call center or collections company.  Searching in RI though eats gas.  Fast.  Got 50 bucks in the bank account and 35 bucks cash.  Insurance is due on Thursday.  Aside from that everything is going pretty well.  Met our new neighbors today (the Russian couple next door).  Really nice.. they have a pear tree!  So cool.  Annnd there is a vintage goods/clothing store up the block from us.  I can already see the cash flowing from my debit card as soon as I'm employed again.  I feel like Nana!

My birthday is next week and the entire family is so involved with my brother going to Japan for the year I'm beginning to think they've totally forgotten.  It's ok though.. even though it kinda bums me out, I can understand why.. leaving the country for a year/only son being far vr kid turning 25.  However I have come to the conclusion that being a full fledged adult = lose.  At least I have Felix.

our jeep was inspected yesterday.  other than the u-joints (which we knew had to be fixed already), it passed with flying colours.  even the mechanic was surprised at its near 'new' condition.. apparently everything from our engine to four wheel drive is "excellent" to quote him.  sure the body needs a little work (it's rusting in a few spots and we've had a couple dents from other people slamming their doors in parking lots) but we've put a lot of effort and work into its engine, brakes, etc.  it can definitely go another 100,000 miles.. dad thinks it can do another 200,000 if we continue taking care of it like we have so far.  yeah it's no 2008.. but these days they certainly don't make cars like they used to.  the quality is impressive.  apparently the u-joints we were riding with were pretty much dead.. but they were the original.  aka, 15 friggin years old and they only JUST died within the last year.  as far as i'm concerned, the mighty jeep has my patronage until the day i die. (although i've been reading that 2001+ production are inferior to the older cherokee models, off-road performance wise as well as quality of parts.)  we've driven just about everywhere and anywhere you can think of with my baby.. and even the emissions were so low i thought they were a typo.  *super hugs jeep*

next this fall is body work and hopefully a new stereo system.  nothing crazy, just inexpensive but decent since our current system is all but dead.

(psst.. i have a 1993 XJ country)

ugh.  i have a nasty cold.